Sunday, November 6, 2011

How we found out...

In June of this year I had to go to the doctor for some annual blood work due to a medication that I am on. Seth and Colton went with me, we thought it would be a quick and uneventful visit. They waited in the waiting room while I walked back with the nurse. She took my blood pressure and temperature. Then, finally took some blood and requested a urine sample. About five minutes later the Doc came in and said these exact words. "Welp, you're pregnant". ...WHAT!?!?!?!?... After the miscarriage, Seth and I had decided to wait until after I graduated to have another little blessing. He was in the process of starting a new job and after a quick calculation I realized this baby would be due right in the middle of student teaching. The doc finished up while I sat there dumbfounded. I was so worried, worried about the timing, worried this pregnancy would end up in another miscarriage, worried what Seth was going to think. The nurse came in to give me some paperwork and a little plastic bag containing a white stick with two clearly pink lines. I opened the door to the waiting room, saw my adorable son and husband playing, I stood there for a moment, then the tears came streaming down my face. Seth saw me crying and asked me what was wrong. My only possible response was to hand him the plastic bag. So I did. Seconds later, through the sobs, I managed to blurt out a wimpy "I'm pregnant". I waited patiently for his response. The words I heard next took a huge weight off my shoulder, Seth always has a way of making me realize that everything is going to be okay. He smiled "Well, what are you crying for?" and gave me a big bear hug.

On the ride home we went into planning mode. By my timeline I was about 5 weeks along, we decided not to tell anyone until closer to 10. With my high risk status I had been told to call the baby doc as soon as I found out about any pregnancy. I did so and got an appointment for later that week. We discussed possibilities and explained to Colton that he was going to have a little sibling. By the time we reached the driveway I was feeling tons better, everything was going to be okay, we knew it.

Saturday, November 5, 2011


If you follow my facebook account then this announcement is not such a big deal but if not, guess what... Colton is going to be a big brother.

I am 24 weeks and one day. I'm not quite sure why I've waited so long to blog about this miracle growing inside of me. I think I was just a little superstitious that me blogging about it might jinx us. If you remember, Colton was born at 23 weeks, 6 days. We have officially made it past that point and I am overflowing with thankfulness. More on what we (my doctors and I) have done to keep this little one cooking at least a little longer than his brother soon. It has certainly been an interesting several months.

Sawyer James Darnell
Due: February 24, 2012

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Your Day

A letter to my sweet pea:

Today is your day, darling child, the day you were to be born. During the ten short weeks you were with me, I often imagined you being carried to me wrapped in a plush blanket of pink or blue, then safe and cozy in my arms. I imagined your first cry, your first smile, your first step, your first day of school and many more memories we will never have the chance to make. I imagined you playing with your big brother, I know he would have loved you with all his heart.

I never got to hear your heartbeat or feel your fluttery movements but the love and excitement I felt for you was blissful and sweet, however brief. Today is the day I beg God to give you back, the day I lay in bed and cry for a life that never was. The day I see other mothers with adorable babies or large bellies and wonder "why?".

I know you are in a much better place, my sweet angel, but today is the day I selfishly want you here with me. I never got to kiss your precious face but I know one day you will greet me at Heaven's gates with a smile and long embrace.

I'll love you always Sweet Pea,
Your Mommy

Thursday, May 26, 2011


Today was one of those moments that I know I will treasure forever. Colton graduated from his first year of preschool and walked to his seat with his walker and a little assistance from one of his teachers. This is the farthest I have seen him walk since getting sick this winter. The whole cafeteria was still and you could just feel everyone rooting him on silently. It was a moment that I cannot describe in words but luckily Daddy had the camera handy.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Wordless Wednesday: A video from Easter

Considering I didn't really have a chance to blog much this year, I decided to share a video from Easter in late April. Here is Colton (and Mommy) checking out the goodies the Easter bunny brought.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Random Ramblings

Took Colton to the Pediatrician today, turns out he needs to visit the allergy doctor. I never had allergies as a child but Seth had them bad. We go June 10th and I have a feeling it won't be a very fun visit.

*Praxis Update*
Every teacher (at least in Kentucky) has to take and pass an exam towards the end of their undergraduate college career. I took this test on April 30th and was very scared that I wasn't going to pass. Well, today I got my scores... A passing score is 148, I received a 174! I was so excited when I opened up the PDF document and saw that. Interestingly enough, my highest score was in the math section, lowest was social studies and my science/language arts were the middle. If you can't tell I am extremely glad that I passed and now only a simple piece of paper stands between me and my own classroom. I can't wait.

Last thought for this post, The Rapture predictor guy is crazy, that is all.

Monday, May 23, 2011


It's been awhile... a long while. I went back to school for the semester in January and haven't had time to post since. However, now I am on summer break and missing the twitter and blogging world so I'm jumping back in head first.

As most of you know Colton was very sick for several months this winter. We finally had to take him to the ER at UK Hospital, they admitted him to figure out what was wrong. They discovered that he was having a reaction to his CP medication and took him off of it immediately. It was a behavioral reaction so it was very hard to figure out, we had taken him to at least four different doctors and none of them knew what was wrong. The meds were causing him to go into fits of delirium, he was miserable. He has been placed on a new medicine that helps his legs to not be so tight and so far we have seen no ill side effects.

School, for both Colton and me, is going well. I made the Dean's List each semester this year and have a scheduled graduation date of May 2012, only one more semester of classing considering I student teach that Spring. I literally cannot wait. Little Mr. Darnell LOVES school and is doing very well. His teachers are amazing and have helped him progress outrageous amounts this year. He will "graduate" from P3 and into P4 this week. He spends his afternoons with Ms. Monica, our Nanny, they are great together and she has helped him reach many goals in just the short time she has been with us.

I'm sure there are several other things I should update you all on but they will come to me later and I will try very hard to post them. Hope everyone is enjoying this lovely weather.